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i’m following so much quality on this blog. like all of my interests. ;A;

why do i even have that other blog. I feel guilty every time I reblog my fandom stuff. I JUST WANT TO LIKE NIGHTWING AND BATMAN. WHY MUST PEOPLE JUDGE ME.

i’m insecure…

internet explorer sucks lol

in other news I need to get my legs waxed but i am too lazy to actually go when the place is open.

FUCK.

things are starting to make sense now. his “tired” periods when he’s just tired for no reason. His essay on euthenasia(granted, like half of the people in class wrote about it), his constant deep thoughts.

What if I contributed to that? I think I did. Oh god. I helped my best friend towards suicide. I’ve been so insensitive. I hate myself. my heart is broken. my friends and I joke about suicide. I never knew. How was I so insensitive. i’m so sad. I dont know what to do.

my mom is going to cry when he tells her. she’s going to cry.

MY BEST FRIEND JUST TOLD ME THAT HE HAS TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF MANY TIMES AND IM NOT CRYING. WHATS WRONG WITH ME.

trigger warning? idkkkkk

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Why hello there!! It’s been so long since I last wrote here and for that I feel bad. :( Writing on my blog is fun, but I just haven’t felt up to writing a real and good post so let’s try now.

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I survived, if anyone wondered…

I got an allergic reaction to the stitches, then an infection, now a week after my surgery, my reaction is clearing up and i’m returning to the land of the living.

surgery tomorrow. :D

it’ll go well i know.

but i dont get to eat all day sob

my heart feels a little lighter. just a little.

i told shaun that i’m leaving but i didnt tell him why. ;A: i’m sad we wont be in 2 classes together next semester. i hope we still talk/are friends/whatever